My Abortion Story
Then I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, “Now
salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God,
and the power of His Christ have come, for the accuser
of our brethren, who accused them before our God day
and night, has been cast down. And they overcame him
by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their
testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death.
Therefore rejoice, O heavens, and you who dwell in
them! Woe to the inhabitants of the earth and the sea!
For the devil has come down to you, having great wrath,
because he knows that he has a short time.”
—Revelation 12:10–12 NKJV
No one experiences an abortion in a bubble. Most of us have
a background of trauma that often leads to sexual activity
outside of marriage and eventually an unwanted pregnancy.
This unplanned pregnancy can occur within a marriage as
well. In understanding this pain, you must begin to look at
your life before and after the abortion. Choices others made
for you or that you made yourself could have made you
vulnerable to an abortion decision. Most of us did not make
this choice in a “murderous” mind-set, but in a fearful state,
not necessarily considering other choices.
God sees our lives as part of this huge incredible tapestry
that is all woven together, from generation to generation.
Our human eyes, however, often see only the messy
backside of our own tiny piece of that tapestry, with its
intermittent and jumbled threads. We concentrate on our
pain and can’t see how the Lord could take our tragedies
and turn them for His good. You’ll hear me say this several
times, because I want you to remember it: God never
wastes our pain and He will make good use of every past
experience in your future life.
Post-Abortive Women Among Us
Since entering the field of unplanned pregnancy and postabortion
outreach in 1991, I have had the great blessing of
working with multitudes of post-abortive individuals at all
stages of healing. We are everywhere—in churches,
shopping centers, grocery stores, daycare centers, high
schools, pregnancy centers. We encompass all spectrums of
the educational system, from high school dropouts to PhD
holders. We often work well below our level of capacity or at
the top levels of corporations, governments, and
institutions.
Statistics from abortion providers say that if you look into
any American audience, nearly one third of the women you
see could have experienced an abortion.1
Abortion is the most common form of surgical procedure
in the United States, yet also the one that is rarely
discussed in any setting. For most of us, abortion is a secret
we dare not share. We think that if people—even loved ones
—knew about our abortion decision, they would not like us,
love us, or associate with us. In the unhealed heart of many
post-abortive women, we have committed a sin that is so
horrendous, we believe it to be unforgivable. This sin
stamps a scarlet letter A on our foreheads and souls.